Shall we dance?

I'm still here, shooting, studying, working, learning.. no free time, or not enough to take care of this little corner as I would like to do, but today it is a pretty nice day to give some minutes to my blog. I think I'm gonna use this pages to post and talk about my photos, just about now there's nothing else has much more importance in my life. In these months I've learned that if you have a real, solid, strong passion and goals, nothing can tear us apart, so I put myself completely into my job and what I love more. These are some photos from my mid term project.
Valentina was a perfect and beautiful model.

Enjoy.

Dall'Italia con amore

Here we go again.

Dopo 2 settimane sono di nuovo sola, nella mia casa, sul mio divano, che fisso il nulla.
Stamattina alle 5 ho accompagnato mio fratello all'aeroporto, vederlo tornare a casa, dopo la bellissima vacanza trascorsa assieme è stato davvero difficile, ma almeno sono stata brava nel non scoppiare a piangere davanti a lui, le ho riservate tutte al tassinaro che mi riportava a casa, facendomi mille domande (malefico vizio degli americani).
Cosa volete che vi dica.. stare con Leo è stato favoloso, anzi di più! Tra l'altro è stato qui con noi anche mio cugino e tutti insieme siamo andati a Vegas, paura e delirio! Non mi divertivo così tanto da troppo tempo, quel divertimento sano e genuino con le persone che ami e che davvero ti conoscono. Una cosa che mi mancava troppo.
Nella mia vita ultimamente ci sono state parecchie novità, prima su tutte circa un mese fa è arrivato nella Zombie House Chucky, un piccolo e meraviglioso gattino, preso al gattile di SF, era una vita che aspettavo di avere un micetto fusoso tutto mio e finalmente ho fatto questo grande passo, inutile dire che dopo pochi giorni, tra coccole, fusa, graffietti e morsi, ne ero già totalmente innamorata! (se vi state chiedendo se il nome è riferito a Chucky la bambola, la risposta è ebbene si :) e credo che non avrei potuto trovare nome più azzeccato visto che penso che il mio gattino sia psicopatico!)
L'amore che ti dà un animale è pazzesco, sarà banale da dire, ma loro sono moooolto meglio di noi.

Tornando a mio fratello e mio cugino, appena arrivati a SF mi hanno resa la donna più felice del mondo, non solo per la loro presenza, ma per avermi portato una quantità esagerata di regali: 2 pacchi di Pan di Stelle, una cosa che gli americani non si sognano nemmeno (almeno qui sulla West Coast), 2 pacchi di Pangoccioli (Mulino Bianco ti amo), 2 pezzi giganteschi di Parmigiano Reggiano, Leo personalmente poi mi ha regalato 2 libri, e mio padre mi ha mandato la sua meravigliosa Polaroid, tenuta in perfette condizioni pur avendo circa 30 anni...
Sono queste le piccole cose che mi fanno sentire ancora fiera di essere italiana, quei piccoli piaceri della nostra tradizione che mi tengono così legata e mi faranno sempre pensare di essere fortunata ad essere cresciuta in quella parte del mondo; e solo vivendo all'estero ci si rende conto quanto abbiamo e quanto sprechiamo, maltrattiamo e invece dovremmo esserne fieri e trattare un pò meglio le cose meravigliose che fanno parte della nostra tradizione.

E con questa botta di campanilismo e patriottismo scappo a vedere un nuovo episodio di The Walking Dead, mi godo il mio giorno off, cerco di non pensare che chissà quanti mesi passeranno prima che possa rivedere Leo, faccio la lotta con Chucky (il quale mi morde il braccio proprio mentre scrivo), e più tardi, colore ai capelli.. ho promesso a mio fratello che lo faccio felice :D

E.

Kids? ... NO thanks.

One Word, a photo by ☠Pixie on Flickr.

Hola everyone, it's been a while, hope y'all are fine and enjoying the summer... or if you live in SF I'm sorry because we have no summer and we are not suppose to enjoy anything ( of course if you like cold, wind and fog, you are in the right place in the right moment)...

I have been pretty busy with my new job which I like, finally I'm getting closer to my coworkers, of course they're not Nicole but she was much more than just a coworker, of course the cook is not MY cook, but it's fine, changing is good and everything seems to be ok. 

I was thinking to write this post about a topic I really want to talk about: having a baby, kids, children.. figli.. 

Ok, first of all, just to be clear, I'm not pregnant! 

then we can keep talking.. I was noticing how a lot of my friends, a lot!!!!, from the high school, just people I met long time ago, but part of my generation, is getting married and/or is having kids...one, or two... jeez!!!!! 

But guys, friends, are you ready, for real, to have that kind of life? Is it your job and financial situation that good to let you have multiple kids around? to create a family? 

WOW so I'm thinking now, it's bullshit when I read that in Italy there is no job, no money, etc etc... I still remember when my mom had my brother, she was spending sooooo much for everything!!! Diapers, milk, specific food, specific soap, medicine, doctors, stroller, car seat, clothes etc etc etc etc....... 

Let's say this, I'm not a big fan of kids, I like 'em for 10 mins, then when they start crying or yelling or whatever things related to their world, I'd like to choke 'em :) .. ok I'm not that mean, but seriously I don't see myself with a kid, I can't even think of myself with a "little monster" in my arms, and it's weird to say I'm really good with them, I was a great baby sitter when I was in Italy, for a lots of my little cousins, for the two kids of my friend Wanda, but NO NO NO I don't feel that damn desire to be a mom! 

I have no time to take care of my stuff, my life is so messy, I'm still studying, I have a crazy schedule at work, I don't even know where I'm going to spend my life, seriously I don't know if my life is going to be here, back in Italy or somewhere else, I know for sure that I want to travel, I hope my job is going to help me out to do this, but NO again I have tons of projects and have a baby is not one of them..

Some of my friends told me I'm cynic and cold, that I won't never be a woman if I won't be a mom, that I won't never be complete, and my face was WHAT??? WTF!!!! I won't be a woman without a yelling kid around??? well this is not my idea!! I think I'm a great woman, I'm a hard worker, I know what means the word SACRIFICE and I'm breaking my back to accomplice my goals, I have a man I love, and he loves me too, I think I make him happy, I think I could be an amazing soulmate, but I just don't want have kids... am I so weird? am I not a real woman for that? 

Well, I'm so glad we are allowed to have different opinions, maybe one day I'm going to change my mind, maybe one day I'm going to be happy and ready for a family.. but now let me tell you, FUCK NO!!!!!!

Now you are the weird one for me and it won't make me feel bad if you think I am the monster.

With love,

E.

Pretty in Pink

Pink is the color of passion, yeah!!!
An amazing song by the Aerosmith used to say that and I believe is true, with my new style I feel so HOT!!!!
Yeah and I'm not even close to be crazy (I'm mean, just a  little bit) but it's incredible how just a color can range my mood, my new hair makes me feels sooo good!!!!
I did my hair pink because I wanted to celebrate my finals, yes I'm finally done with them and now I'm in vacation. V A C A T I O N!!!! this word sounds so sweet :))))
My finals were very good, sometimes I can't believe myself how I can be productive when I'm under pressure, also I got the compliments from my quality of light teacher for my photos and the whole semester and his words were better than all the A+ I can get in my entire carrier.
Now, I'm trying to sleep a little, trying to eat a little more, trying to take my life back, but I won't take any vacation from my camera, and actually I'm about to go shooting right now for a friend's bday party, I hope to do not fall asleep while I'm shooting..

Other big news, I may have a new job.... but but but I will talk about it when I'm 100% sure :)

E.

P.S. I'm gonna write soon a new post all about the Google scholarship I won, it deserves an entire post :P

sassolini nella scarpa...

Just because I'm a nice and kind person I'm gonna tell you that this post is gonna be in italian, yes today I'm lazy and I don't wanna think and write in another language so, take google translate, or your fucking Rosetta Stone and start reading..... otherwise see ya in another post life.

Oggi mi sento che devo scrivere in italiano, quindi vaffanculo all'inglese e a chi non capirà cosa sto scrivendo...
Purtroppo non riesco a star dietro al mio blog, faccio schifo lo aggiorno una volta al mese, ma la mia vita non mi permette tempo da dedicare a nulla, manco a me stessa.
Ok la smetto di lamentarmi che tanto non frega una figa secca a nessuno se mi piango addosso.
Si quella nella foto sono io, non un gallo da combattimento :) dopo 2 anni di non tinte ho deciso che era ora di cambiare colore e mi sono fatta un rosso/fuxia che non impegna affatto... una cosa sobria che non dà nell'occhio... ma prende a pugni gli occhi!
La decisione è arrivata non di corsa ma la ponderavo, la spinta finale l'ha data la mia decisione di mandare a fanculo il lavoro!!!! ebbene si! dopo l'ultima discussione arrivata a toccare la mia vita personale, i miei cazzetti privati, dopo le ultime parole dette da una persona che non è manco degna di leccarmi il sedere dopo una scarica di diarrea, ho preso le mie cosine e ho tirato un bel dito medio. la sensazione è stata incazzata come un lupo, delusa per il culo che mi sono fatta in questi anni per qualcuno che meritava solo calci nelle balle, e godimento puro. 
Quindi ora sono ufficialmente una disoccupata, e si è troppo strano, ho tempo libero. Poco ma ne ho. Ho deciso che mi faccio un mese di disintossicazione dallo stress accumulato e poi dio provvede, sto studiando come una pazza in previsione degli esami finali, ho mille progetti da preparare e il tempo per la mia scuola è il più prezioso e ben investito. Sto lavorando tantissimo in studio ed è la cosa più bella del mondo, il livello di piacere che si sprigiona durante i miei fotoset in studio è pazzesco!
Per il resto va tutto nella norma, cioè tra i mille casini lo metto sempre nelle ciap a tutti perché ho più palle io di un campo da golf... e si mi amo, mi stimo, per quanto la sfiga ci provi sempre io sono più forte, per quanto la merda cerchi sempre di calpestarmi io la schivo, o al massimo se mi sporca un po' so che basta una doccia bollente e tutto torna pulito.

KARMA.
Vi fotterà.
e allora ci sarà da ridere....

E.

Distance is the answer of everything

I was supposed to get up from my bed, take a quick shower and jump on the bus to go at Ile's house, a lasagna was waiting for me... but the whether outside didn't' help at all my laziness. Guess?! yes it's raining again... So I decided to stay home, clean a little bit the mess I have in my house, write a new post after ages on my blog, take a looooong and hot shower and then get ready to work (I fucking hate that restaurant!!!!!)
In these week I've been incredibly busy, I did all my mid terms (and YES I passed them), I'm also spending a lot of time in studio, and this is amazing, you have no idea what means for a photography student to shoot in studio, working with models, and light, creating sets and having fun... I could do it all day, every day. I'm learning a lot and this is the most important thing, I'm very happy of my Quality of Light class, my teacher is a great photographer and even thought we have always so many homework to do I feel I'm learning, which is fantastic!
These are some on my first studio shots, I know I have a lot to learn but you have no idea how they make me happy :)

Even if they look very simple photos behind them there are hours of work and setting, studio shooting is a long and hard process, but the satisfaction, even for simple portraits like those two, is unbelievable!!!

But... but .. but... this time I should say that photography and photos now are a huge part of my happiness but not the only one... finally after months and months of pieces of shit I think I found somebody special...

J.

He's pure concentrate of kindness, sweetness and simplicity.

He is that guy I've never thought I could stay with. We basically are the opposite, we like completely different things, we have different taste in almost everything, but his kindness left me speechless; he's a man from another time, he is a gentleman... something I thought it was impossible to find... but after a long and hard research, I made it... and yes he deserves all my honey and rainbow words :)

shit I'm kinda h...y (I won't say that work :P but I feel it!!!)

E.

The color of passion

Mijo

I would like to use this post to talk about all the news I have in my life, about him, J, maybe the biggest news, but I think he's only for me, he's the sweetest part of my life and I'm so jealous that I wanna keep it only for me.

I'll tell you only that it's been 4 months and he makes me happy.

He's so different, different form every body I've ever liked in my life, from me, from everything it was common, and this huge difference scares me but at the same time it makes me so happy I can't almost believe it :) ... I'm smiling!!!!

The photo above is part of his face :) and every time I look at it I stop 5 seconds to think about WHY MEN NEED SO LONG EYELASHES??? this is so unfair!!!!

He's pure.

Like a Snake

The second photo is part of my thigh tattoo... now it's healing and in 2 weeks I'm gonna do the last session, I CAN'T WAIT!
Ready for more photos, and video?
I wanna create a set for my last tattoo session :) Juan is gonna love me (or kill me?!)

Now I should get ready to work.. damn I'm so lazy..

E.

Viva Las Vegas

Venice Beach - California

Here I am again. I've been pretty busy last month, I had a friend visiting from Italy and we spent so much time traveling and visiting San Francisco (it was his first time in US, pretty exciting). We went in Vegas and SoCal by car... a suicide! SF - Las Vegas by car is more than 10 hours, on a road that is desert only, straight for miles and miles, just desert and nothing else. At least Las Vegas was so much fun! I can't believe there is a city like Vegas, a huge Disneyworld for adults, a fake city where everything is possible, where there's no time (I didn't see a watch in any of the places I saw), shows every day, every time, colors, lights, music, money.. money.. money.. it was crazy and I can't wait to go back, next time with my girls, and my brother... I'm sure he's gonna go crazy over there :)

Then we went to LA... thank God, Vegas - LA is only 4 hours.

Every time I go to LA I remember how I love SF...

LA is a waist of time, don't go over there, never. There's nothing to see, nothing to do, it's just bad.

After you saw the Walk of Fame, literally is the Hollywood Blvd., a dirty street, full of nuts, sexy shops, whores, some Starbucks and souvenir store, the Hollywood sign, the Universal Studios, LA is over... is boring and nasty.

Much prettier is Santa Monica or Venice... I have to say that I enjoyed these two small city right next to LA, mostly I loved the weather. It was so hot, almost like summer.. something I won't never see in SF, damn! 

But even though the weather was ugh much much better I still love my foggy city and I'm glad to be here again.

I'm also back to school again, and this time I wasn't ready. Seriously. I already know this semester is gonna be hard...

I'm glad I found somebody who's helping me to make my life better... 

E.

News form 2012

First session thighs tattoo by Juan Puente @ BlackHeart Tattoo

2012 is started, and yes it's gonna be a very intense and busy year like the past 2011. A year of work, school, photos, passions, friends, love (I always hope in love.... hopeless :P)
This month started in a very good way, good money at work... yes they are always welcome...
A new tattoo (photo above!). I decided it was time for some more ink (my addiction is dangerous) so I started a new one on my thighs. This is a photo from the first session, I actually did the first one right before Christmas (it was my personal Christmas present awww), but it's gonna be a very long work, maybe next week I'm gonna do the second session. I won't tell you what is it...not yet, you will see the work in progress session by session, I'm also doing some videos of my sessions and I think I'm gonna put them all together to create a reportage of my new work. I chose Juan Puente for my legs, he's great.. no, more than great! You already saw many photos of Juan, but always during other people sessions, this time I wanted him all for me, and I'm absolutely happy, he's doing a fantastic job and I'm soooo proud of my new ink.
Another great news is that I'm about to have Mau, one of my best friends from Italy, here in SF!!! He's gonna come next week and you have no idea how I'm excited!!!!!!! He's gonna stay almost 2 weeks and we decided to do a road trip between SoCal: we're going to LA; Arizona to shoot in the Grand Canyon and then straight to Nevada: Las Vegas! CAN'T WAIT!!!! and my 5D Mark ii can't wait too :)

My winter break is almost over... I have 3 more weeks and then back to school for another extra heavy semester... I'm not ready yet, not ready at all... this year was hard and I really need a long vacation, far from everything... but it's not time yet, I'll have to wait for the summer...
Scared to go back to school, but happy at the same time...

3 more weeks of freedom...
I know already they will be too fast...

E.

New Born

New Born, a photo by ☠Pixie on Flickr.

Last post for this 2011. I'm writing at 7.43 in the morning... even though I'm tired I can't sleep, so I though to write something to say goodbye to this year.

This year was: busy, crazy, messy, intense (maybe too much), full of news, I had the opportunity to learn a lot in my school, and I thank my family to help me to reach my goal. Now I think I'm a better photographer (but I'm still learning, I won't never stop learning!!), I think I'm a better person, maybe a little bit too selfish, a little bit too self absorbed, but it's the only way I have to be focused on what I have to do.

And your 2011??? How was it??

I did super important things this year, first of all I started my school, the Academy of Art University, the most important thing I have here, the reason I'm doing what I'm doing. I passed all my classes and this was a very important success for me, as a foreign student I feel double satisfied!

I moved in a new great house, with a lovely roomie (finally!!!!!). 

I grew up in my job and finally I make pretty good money, after one year counting every cent now I feel refreshed!!

I got my 5D Mark ii and the 50mm F/1.4 and now I know I won't never live without.

I met great friends, but also a lot of shit... maybe more shitty people than good ones, but I've learned how to be strong enough to leave everything behind me and keep looking ahead.

I met the guy who knew how to change my life....

I lost the guy who changed my life...

For this new year I already have a pretty big list of goals I must reach.

• buy a speedlite for my 5D Mark ii.
• buy a new lens for my 5D Mark ii (maybe I'm gonna buy the 24-70mm F/2.8)
• buy a pretty good equipment of lights 
• buy a medium format super vintage camera
• get more tattoos (thighs, sleeve)
• let my hair grow
• pass all my classes with A and B only
• lose at least 10 lbs
• forget about what I used to have and I lost and look forward to find something better
• buy more shoes
• aprender español!!!!!
• go to Italy for a real summer experience <3
• never stop taking photos
• never stop being the way I am
• never stop getting better 

And now I think I'll try to sleep a little... tonight it's gonna be a hard night at work...

I wish a great end and an amazing beginning!

love ya bitches!

xxx

E.

Heaven and Hell

This is the project I did for my finals about my passion for tattoos.
Hope you'll like it.

All Rights Reserved
Eleonora Palmieri Photography 2011. 
Don't use my photos, don't modify or crop them.

The Cheater

I don't remember if I told you that I have a new house... 

This is my second week from my new bedroom, a huge bedroom with an amazing victorian style window, tons of natural lights and a nice view on the hills of SF.

I love my new place. It's a pretty good size apt in the heart of Russian Hill (yes I'm back to my old neighborhood), I'm lucky enough to live with a gorgeous person also. My roommate is fantastic, too bad we have such a different schedule and it's kinda hard to spend time together because I really like her. A modern bohemian girl, kinda hippie, kinda vintage, she is pretty, and most important thing, she is super into photography like me! should I ask more?

So now I have a new house, a new great roomie, my new camera, a new tripod (fuck yeah!!), and I'm planning a few new things that I'm gonna tell you later.

The only thing I should do to be kinda happy is to find a new job... I'm so done with that place, I can't waist my time anymore. I can stand it anymore, I'm sorry only for the guys who I work with, but for all the rest I really gotta find a new place... I hate restaurants but here it seems to be the easiest place to make money... 

Now let's talk about photos.

The photo I put on my blog today it's a photo I needed to do to remind myself how I love photography, to remind myself who I am and why I'm here. I'm cheating my Canon with this vintage Nikon but only for this photo :P ... Canon is a true, deep love!

Now I have also to remind myself that I'm a photography student and I have finals exams to prepare.

Crossed fingers.

E.

I know the sun must set to rise

I still see your face everywhere I go.

I can smell you, hear you voice. Everything we were is so deep inside me and it doesn't want to leave.

It's been almost 4 months and I'm still here thinking you were the one. But I know I'm damn wrong. You were so wrong. You were a mistake. That's what I'm trying to believe. Maybe one day I'm gonna win this war, because you create a war inside me, and now I'm falling apart. 

I see blurry, nothing is on focus, only your memory is so vivid and it pisses me off. I'm losing. I lost you and now I'm losing myself. 

When will all of this be over? 

If I could I'd like to delete my memory like Clementine. I should hate you. But I only hate myself because I'm not able to let you go, and it's too late. 

I'm under a stormy sky and I'm waiting for the sun. 

Because I know the sun must set to rise...

Butterflies & Hurricanes

I'm done with today.

I'm done with that fake smile I need to have while I'm working.

I'm done with being nice and kind.

I'm done with that part of me I hate.

Tonight I was about to kill somebody. Why I can't kill stupid people? Why I can't clean the world? 

I don't get it, I think we are too many here... why I can't move on another planet with no idiots around? 

I'm so sick of my job. I'm not a waitress, I'm not a bartender. I'm not able to work with stupid and disrespectful people, I'm sick and tired of saying "yes" when I'd like to flip off my finger instead. 

I'm so done. 

One day everything is gonna be okay. Everything is gonna change. One day I'll be the way I am and I won't care about anybody else, or just the few people I want to care about. One day I'll be strong enough to say NO and give back all the shit I'm taking now....

But now I feel I'm struggling with the part of me who needs this compromise and the other part of me who'd like to give up. 

One day I'm gonna find a way out.

I'm so done with everything today.

Non so che titolo dare a questo post... iniziamo bene :)

Oggi mi va di scrivere un post in italiano. Mi sono resa conto che è tantissimo che non lo faccio, ho preso troppo alla lettera il consiglio del mio ex insegnante di writing class: "fate un blog in Inglese!!" credo mi abbia aiutato, ma oggi sono davvero pigra, è il mio giorno off e di domenica non ho quasi voglia di collegare il cervello, nemmeno per parlare o scrivere in inglese.
La settimana passata è stata davvero dura. Pesante.
Sto preparando gli esami di Mid-Term e mi sembra di svalvolare, già dati i primi 2 e domani gli ultimi 2, speriamo bene.
Martedì scorso è stato il mio 29° compleanno 21° compleanno (LOL) e proprio mi è stato sul cazzo da morire, nemmeno mi va di parlare della brutta sensazione che è stata, parlerò invece del regalo che mi sono fatta per rendere quel giorno speciale... dico solo CANON EOS 5D MARK II. Il regalo più bello che potessi mai farmi. Dopo averla usata per un mese, non sono riuscita a farne più a meno, e così ho pensato che io e lei siamo fatte per stare insieme per sempre. Lei è fottutamente sexy!!!
Ora sembriamo la più bella delle coppie, sempre insieme, affiatate, l'una per l'altra... questa cosa fa tanto photography geek, ma che devo fare se non c'è nulla attualmente che ami di più? Nella mia vita ora come ora non c'è spazio per altro, e ogni cosa che faccio è relativa alla fotografia.. ma dio solo sa quanta roba sta bollendo in pentola!! Faccio un piccolissimo elenco di tutte le cose che dovrò fare:

• sto cercando casa! si si proprio una casetta nuova, per andare a vivere con le mie amiche, la rossa Cassandra e la bionda Ilenia, che voglio di più dalla vita? abbiamo trovato pure l'equilibrio nei colori. Problema è che a SF non è affatto facile trovare una casa carina, in un quartiere carino,con prezzi decenti, qui gli affitti sono così alti che mi viene da piangere solo all'idea, cmq oggi ne vado a vedere una e speriamo bene :)
• pian pianino dovrò comprare pezzi mancanti alla mia vita da fotografa quali: un nuovo cavalletto, la mia nuova bambina è troppo pesante per il mio cavalletto economico, così pensavo di prenderne uno davvero buono, peccato che anche lì la cifra sia indecente. Inoltre mi servirà un flash e non è che mi accontento di quello scamuffo, io voglio il meglio ergo voglio lo speedlite 580EX ii, altra bella cifra considerevole. 

Senza poi parlare del fatto che ho sempre le mie passioni: shopping (siiii sono anche io una ragazza) e tattoo... già ne ho in mente qualcuno nuovo... ma cazzo perché tutto quello che amo costa così tanto?

Ohhh... mi sono scordata di dirvi che anche questo mese sono zitella, si si non c'è nulla di nuovo all'orizzonte, allergia agli uomini, mi annoiano a morte, resterò sola io e la mia canon, che è una gran bella solitudine.... ma dio se mi mancano le coccole.. anche il mio Danbo ha trovato un amichetto da coccolare... io invece mi attacco al cazz... non ne farò una tragedia, ma inizio ad averne le palle piene ^_^
Detto ciò mi vado a fare una bella doccia depurativa, mi vesto, mi faccio super figa (ahahah) e me ne vado a vedere la casetta prima, e poi a fare foto ad una Tattoo Convencion... che incontrassi un bel tatuatore figo e mi innamoro..

Peace gente...
E.

LVE.

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

- Steve Jobs -

VANS are fucking great models!

Today was a productive day! 

First of all was my day off and yes I'm kinda happy,  days off are always a good thing, then I spent most of the time taking photos for my school's assignment. My Visualization teacher had the outstanding idea to give us a project  with SHOES as a subject and nothing better was to me working on this photos, I'm kinda crazy about shoes, they are one of the best way to spend money, they are never enough... so I decided to shoot my new Vans, I had to put my shoes in a situation I thought was interesting, so I chose to shoot my feet floating in the air with a pretty awesome background, an explosion of bokeh!!! 

I was thinking about one of the song I love more "Where is my mind?" by Pixies  because I'm always "with your feet in the air and your head on the ground..." .... maybe I'm a hopeless dreamer but I love to live my life this way :)

About all the rest... school is going well, I love it you already know, all the classes are super cool, but Composition... damn it's such a pain in the ass, but they say I have to so let's kick some asses!

Work is getting better.  I quit my second job, it was impossible, 2 jobs plus school, plus homework, plus photos = NO LIFE. So I decided my life was more important than money and now I'm "free" again. At least I have much time to study and that's the most important thing. 

My personal life is still the same... boring... nothing... an empty book... and I don't have time to write anything on it, maybe now it's better, I have to be super focused on my photography life, that's the first thing, then all the rest... also because I'm amazing to wanting always something I can't have. What should I do? ... I like a robot am not a robot, so it's not that simple to figure it out, but I'm working on it :)

E.

                                 

Some other photos I shot today...

just 5 seconds..

Look at you!!!! I have a new layout, pretty awesome, isn't it?
No time to talk today, work is waiting for me..
but i promise i'll be back soon.

Welcome full frame

                                   Welcome full frame, a photo by ☠Pixie {Eleonora Palmieri photography} on Flickr.

I don't need words for this post...
she talks better than me.

Mia - session II.....

...and today I got some color for my tattoo :) as you can see now my arm is like a sausage hot and red, i can barely see the colors... can't wait to see it finally done.. after this session I'm gonna wait a month so the colors will be perfect and then see if I want to add anything else, probably just review some stuff :)
Also Juan Puente one of the best tattoo artist here in SF gave me his Canon V-1 to let me play with a film camera! jesus he's rad!!!!!! It's gonna be hard I'm not that good with film and that camera is so heavy I feel my arms shaking after 5 seconds pointing to shoot, but it's too awesome!

And now I'm here on my bed thinking about something I don't know, now I feel so tired and empty, incomplete again... I swear I hate myself, I hate this part of me.. I don't get why after a beautiful day now i feel like shit... why i can't enjoy this moment, why???
and also i feel even worst because the only person who I'd like to talk with is sleeping, living way too far from me.. and maybe he doesn't really want to listen my damn problems...
The only thing i know is i'd like to stop my mind sometimes, now i feel like crap with no fucking reason and i miss my family, my brother more than anything and i don't' get why everything is happening
i just hate myself now.