I know the sun must set to rise

I still see your face everywhere I go.

I can smell you, hear you voice. Everything we were is so deep inside me and it doesn't want to leave.

It's been almost 4 months and I'm still here thinking you were the one. But I know I'm damn wrong. You were so wrong. You were a mistake. That's what I'm trying to believe. Maybe one day I'm gonna win this war, because you create a war inside me, and now I'm falling apart. 

I see blurry, nothing is on focus, only your memory is so vivid and it pisses me off. I'm losing. I lost you and now I'm losing myself. 

When will all of this be over? 

If I could I'd like to delete my memory like Clementine. I should hate you. But I only hate myself because I'm not able to let you go, and it's too late. 

I'm under a stormy sky and I'm waiting for the sun. 

Because I know the sun must set to rise...

News.... MUSE...

Hello everyone! how's life going? mine is getting busier...

have a couple of things to talk about today, so let's get started...

I got a new job!!!!

today was my first day at PERBACCO, an italian restaurant in the financial district, a fine dining restaurant were i have to host, wearing like a woman (and that's the real bet for me!!!) and follows tones of rules... it's gonna be hard, I already know but it's a challenge and i'm gonna try.. today i started my training and i hope i did it well, now i have 2 books to study, books about employees rules and it sounds crazy to me....

...but we will see, the most hard thing i have to do is being careful about tattoos and piercings... i have to hide all of them and i hate it because it's like hiding part of me, part of what i am.. but i have to, it's a good place to work, and yes i need money..

I have to do 4 more days of training and then i'm going to start my regular shifts, I'll have 3 days lunch time to start, so i can still work at Amarena, I won't leave my restaurant, i love it and i'll try to do some double shift, then I have to see how everything can works together with my school...

beeeecause I'm going to start the fall semester september 1st!!!! I'm super excited and happy, it's the fist time in my life i'm happy to go back to school :) i'm going to take 4 classes: photoshop, visualization, color photography and composition, they sounds awesome and i can't wait.. seriously!

Last things i want to talk about is what i did last saturday..........and i'll say only one word... MUSE!!!!!!!!!

I saw them at the Outside Lands Festival here in San Francisco, and i swear to God i've never seen a show like that in my entire life.. it was more than amazing, more than great... it was just perfect! They are unbelievable on stage, Matt is fantastic, I'm totally in love with him! I lost my voice singing all the songs, I was almost crying more than one time, I don't even know how to explain what their music makes me feel, the only thing i know it's that i love 'em!

This is a little video I took when they were performing my favorite song, it' s a crappy video but that moment will be in my heart forever...

Well.. now i have to study my paper work and get ready for dinner with my friends...

wish me some luck because it's going to start a super busy and stressful time of my life!!!

Peace.