Shall we dance?

I'm still here, shooting, studying, working, learning.. no free time, or not enough to take care of this little corner as I would like to do, but today it is a pretty nice day to give some minutes to my blog. I think I'm gonna use this pages to post and talk about my photos, just about now there's nothing else has much more importance in my life. In these months I've learned that if you have a real, solid, strong passion and goals, nothing can tear us apart, so I put myself completely into my job and what I love more. These are some photos from my mid term project.
Valentina was a perfect and beautiful model.

Enjoy.

Pretty in Pink

Pink is the color of passion, yeah!!!
An amazing song by the Aerosmith used to say that and I believe is true, with my new style I feel so HOT!!!!
Yeah and I'm not even close to be crazy (I'm mean, just a  little bit) but it's incredible how just a color can range my mood, my new hair makes me feels sooo good!!!!
I did my hair pink because I wanted to celebrate my finals, yes I'm finally done with them and now I'm in vacation. V A C A T I O N!!!! this word sounds so sweet :))))
My finals were very good, sometimes I can't believe myself how I can be productive when I'm under pressure, also I got the compliments from my quality of light teacher for my photos and the whole semester and his words were better than all the A+ I can get in my entire carrier.
Now, I'm trying to sleep a little, trying to eat a little more, trying to take my life back, but I won't take any vacation from my camera, and actually I'm about to go shooting right now for a friend's bday party, I hope to do not fall asleep while I'm shooting..

Other big news, I may have a new job.... but but but I will talk about it when I'm 100% sure :)

E.

P.S. I'm gonna write soon a new post all about the Google scholarship I won, it deserves an entire post :P

Distance is the answer of everything

I was supposed to get up from my bed, take a quick shower and jump on the bus to go at Ile's house, a lasagna was waiting for me... but the whether outside didn't' help at all my laziness. Guess?! yes it's raining again... So I decided to stay home, clean a little bit the mess I have in my house, write a new post after ages on my blog, take a looooong and hot shower and then get ready to work (I fucking hate that restaurant!!!!!)
In these week I've been incredibly busy, I did all my mid terms (and YES I passed them), I'm also spending a lot of time in studio, and this is amazing, you have no idea what means for a photography student to shoot in studio, working with models, and light, creating sets and having fun... I could do it all day, every day. I'm learning a lot and this is the most important thing, I'm very happy of my Quality of Light class, my teacher is a great photographer and even thought we have always so many homework to do I feel I'm learning, which is fantastic!
These are some on my first studio shots, I know I have a lot to learn but you have no idea how they make me happy :)

Even if they look very simple photos behind them there are hours of work and setting, studio shooting is a long and hard process, but the satisfaction, even for simple portraits like those two, is unbelievable!!!

But... but .. but... this time I should say that photography and photos now are a huge part of my happiness but not the only one... finally after months and months of pieces of shit I think I found somebody special...

J.

He's pure concentrate of kindness, sweetness and simplicity.

He is that guy I've never thought I could stay with. We basically are the opposite, we like completely different things, we have different taste in almost everything, but his kindness left me speechless; he's a man from another time, he is a gentleman... something I thought it was impossible to find... but after a long and hard research, I made it... and yes he deserves all my honey and rainbow words :)

shit I'm kinda h...y (I won't say that work :P but I feel it!!!)

E.

The color of passion

Mijo

I would like to use this post to talk about all the news I have in my life, about him, J, maybe the biggest news, but I think he's only for me, he's the sweetest part of my life and I'm so jealous that I wanna keep it only for me.

I'll tell you only that it's been 4 months and he makes me happy.

He's so different, different form every body I've ever liked in my life, from me, from everything it was common, and this huge difference scares me but at the same time it makes me so happy I can't almost believe it :) ... I'm smiling!!!!

The photo above is part of his face :) and every time I look at it I stop 5 seconds to think about WHY MEN NEED SO LONG EYELASHES??? this is so unfair!!!!

He's pure.

Like a Snake

The second photo is part of my thigh tattoo... now it's healing and in 2 weeks I'm gonna do the last session, I CAN'T WAIT!
Ready for more photos, and video?
I wanna create a set for my last tattoo session :) Juan is gonna love me (or kill me?!)

Now I should get ready to work.. damn I'm so lazy..

E.

Viva Las Vegas

Venice Beach - California

Here I am again. I've been pretty busy last month, I had a friend visiting from Italy and we spent so much time traveling and visiting San Francisco (it was his first time in US, pretty exciting). We went in Vegas and SoCal by car... a suicide! SF - Las Vegas by car is more than 10 hours, on a road that is desert only, straight for miles and miles, just desert and nothing else. At least Las Vegas was so much fun! I can't believe there is a city like Vegas, a huge Disneyworld for adults, a fake city where everything is possible, where there's no time (I didn't see a watch in any of the places I saw), shows every day, every time, colors, lights, music, money.. money.. money.. it was crazy and I can't wait to go back, next time with my girls, and my brother... I'm sure he's gonna go crazy over there :)

Then we went to LA... thank God, Vegas - LA is only 4 hours.

Every time I go to LA I remember how I love SF...

LA is a waist of time, don't go over there, never. There's nothing to see, nothing to do, it's just bad.

After you saw the Walk of Fame, literally is the Hollywood Blvd., a dirty street, full of nuts, sexy shops, whores, some Starbucks and souvenir store, the Hollywood sign, the Universal Studios, LA is over... is boring and nasty.

Much prettier is Santa Monica or Venice... I have to say that I enjoyed these two small city right next to LA, mostly I loved the weather. It was so hot, almost like summer.. something I won't never see in SF, damn! 

But even though the weather was ugh much much better I still love my foggy city and I'm glad to be here again.

I'm also back to school again, and this time I wasn't ready. Seriously. I already know this semester is gonna be hard...

I'm glad I found somebody who's helping me to make my life better... 

E.

News form 2012

First session thighs tattoo by Juan Puente @ BlackHeart Tattoo

2012 is started, and yes it's gonna be a very intense and busy year like the past 2011. A year of work, school, photos, passions, friends, love (I always hope in love.... hopeless :P)
This month started in a very good way, good money at work... yes they are always welcome...
A new tattoo (photo above!). I decided it was time for some more ink (my addiction is dangerous) so I started a new one on my thighs. This is a photo from the first session, I actually did the first one right before Christmas (it was my personal Christmas present awww), but it's gonna be a very long work, maybe next week I'm gonna do the second session. I won't tell you what is it...not yet, you will see the work in progress session by session, I'm also doing some videos of my sessions and I think I'm gonna put them all together to create a reportage of my new work. I chose Juan Puente for my legs, he's great.. no, more than great! You already saw many photos of Juan, but always during other people sessions, this time I wanted him all for me, and I'm absolutely happy, he's doing a fantastic job and I'm soooo proud of my new ink.
Another great news is that I'm about to have Mau, one of my best friends from Italy, here in SF!!! He's gonna come next week and you have no idea how I'm excited!!!!!!! He's gonna stay almost 2 weeks and we decided to do a road trip between SoCal: we're going to LA; Arizona to shoot in the Grand Canyon and then straight to Nevada: Las Vegas! CAN'T WAIT!!!! and my 5D Mark ii can't wait too :)

My winter break is almost over... I have 3 more weeks and then back to school for another extra heavy semester... I'm not ready yet, not ready at all... this year was hard and I really need a long vacation, far from everything... but it's not time yet, I'll have to wait for the summer...
Scared to go back to school, but happy at the same time...

3 more weeks of freedom...
I know already they will be too fast...

E.

New Born

New Born, a photo by ☠Pixie on Flickr.

Last post for this 2011. I'm writing at 7.43 in the morning... even though I'm tired I can't sleep, so I though to write something to say goodbye to this year.

This year was: busy, crazy, messy, intense (maybe too much), full of news, I had the opportunity to learn a lot in my school, and I thank my family to help me to reach my goal. Now I think I'm a better photographer (but I'm still learning, I won't never stop learning!!), I think I'm a better person, maybe a little bit too selfish, a little bit too self absorbed, but it's the only way I have to be focused on what I have to do.

And your 2011??? How was it??

I did super important things this year, first of all I started my school, the Academy of Art University, the most important thing I have here, the reason I'm doing what I'm doing. I passed all my classes and this was a very important success for me, as a foreign student I feel double satisfied!

I moved in a new great house, with a lovely roomie (finally!!!!!). 

I grew up in my job and finally I make pretty good money, after one year counting every cent now I feel refreshed!!

I got my 5D Mark ii and the 50mm F/1.4 and now I know I won't never live without.

I met great friends, but also a lot of shit... maybe more shitty people than good ones, but I've learned how to be strong enough to leave everything behind me and keep looking ahead.

I met the guy who knew how to change my life....

I lost the guy who changed my life...

For this new year I already have a pretty big list of goals I must reach.

• buy a speedlite for my 5D Mark ii.
• buy a new lens for my 5D Mark ii (maybe I'm gonna buy the 24-70mm F/2.8)
• buy a pretty good equipment of lights 
• buy a medium format super vintage camera
• get more tattoos (thighs, sleeve)
• let my hair grow
• pass all my classes with A and B only
• lose at least 10 lbs
• forget about what I used to have and I lost and look forward to find something better
• buy more shoes
• aprender español!!!!!
• go to Italy for a real summer experience <3
• never stop taking photos
• never stop being the way I am
• never stop getting better 

And now I think I'll try to sleep a little... tonight it's gonna be a hard night at work...

I wish a great end and an amazing beginning!

love ya bitches!

xxx

E.

Heaven and Hell

This is the project I did for my finals about my passion for tattoos.
Hope you'll like it.

All Rights Reserved
Eleonora Palmieri Photography 2011. 
Don't use my photos, don't modify or crop them.

The Cheater

I don't remember if I told you that I have a new house... 

This is my second week from my new bedroom, a huge bedroom with an amazing victorian style window, tons of natural lights and a nice view on the hills of SF.

I love my new place. It's a pretty good size apt in the heart of Russian Hill (yes I'm back to my old neighborhood), I'm lucky enough to live with a gorgeous person also. My roommate is fantastic, too bad we have such a different schedule and it's kinda hard to spend time together because I really like her. A modern bohemian girl, kinda hippie, kinda vintage, she is pretty, and most important thing, she is super into photography like me! should I ask more?

So now I have a new house, a new great roomie, my new camera, a new tripod (fuck yeah!!), and I'm planning a few new things that I'm gonna tell you later.

The only thing I should do to be kinda happy is to find a new job... I'm so done with that place, I can't waist my time anymore. I can stand it anymore, I'm sorry only for the guys who I work with, but for all the rest I really gotta find a new place... I hate restaurants but here it seems to be the easiest place to make money... 

Now let's talk about photos.

The photo I put on my blog today it's a photo I needed to do to remind myself how I love photography, to remind myself who I am and why I'm here. I'm cheating my Canon with this vintage Nikon but only for this photo :P ... Canon is a true, deep love!

Now I have also to remind myself that I'm a photography student and I have finals exams to prepare.

Crossed fingers.

E.

VANS are fucking great models!

Today was a productive day! 

First of all was my day off and yes I'm kinda happy,  days off are always a good thing, then I spent most of the time taking photos for my school's assignment. My Visualization teacher had the outstanding idea to give us a project  with SHOES as a subject and nothing better was to me working on this photos, I'm kinda crazy about shoes, they are one of the best way to spend money, they are never enough... so I decided to shoot my new Vans, I had to put my shoes in a situation I thought was interesting, so I chose to shoot my feet floating in the air with a pretty awesome background, an explosion of bokeh!!! 

I was thinking about one of the song I love more "Where is my mind?" by Pixies  because I'm always "with your feet in the air and your head on the ground..." .... maybe I'm a hopeless dreamer but I love to live my life this way :)

About all the rest... school is going well, I love it you already know, all the classes are super cool, but Composition... damn it's such a pain in the ass, but they say I have to so let's kick some asses!

Work is getting better.  I quit my second job, it was impossible, 2 jobs plus school, plus homework, plus photos = NO LIFE. So I decided my life was more important than money and now I'm "free" again. At least I have much time to study and that's the most important thing. 

My personal life is still the same... boring... nothing... an empty book... and I don't have time to write anything on it, maybe now it's better, I have to be super focused on my photography life, that's the first thing, then all the rest... also because I'm amazing to wanting always something I can't have. What should I do? ... I like a robot am not a robot, so it's not that simple to figure it out, but I'm working on it :)

E.

                                 

Some other photos I shot today...

new semester here we go!

..and yes i'm back to school!!! last Friday I officially started my second semester at AAU and I'm really happy and satisfied. I had 2 classes the first day: Visualization and Composition for the artist. Visualization is pretty amazing, I'm gonna study what is behind a photo, the concept behind, the idea a photographer wants to show people with his picture and I'm gonna do every week a different project with a different theme, first assignment is about FEAR! pretty awesome, and today i'm going to shoot something around, i already have some ideas.
Composition for the artist is a little pain in the ass. Basically is english. How to be a good writer. Nothing related to photography but i have to take that class for my bachelor..
Other classes I'm going to take are Color Photography and Photoshop and I'm very happy about my schedule this semester they all look interesting and I'm so excited!!!

This week was super extremely busy, but i like a busy life better than stay home and doing nothing. My two jobs are ok, and i hope i can handle them both otherwise I have to choose.. but now I'm doing fine, i still really dislike my girly dressing for Perbacco but I have to live with them.

Last week and was pretty amazing! Adriano, a friend of mine from high school, came here in SF!!! you don't even know how happy i was... it was like going back in time, i met him when i was 14, we grew up together basically, he is one of my closest friend and now he lives in UK so it's not easy to see each other. Being here together was awesome! I'm just sad i have to wait at least 1 year to see him again :( damn distance! I miss my friends sometimes, I'm a selective person, I don't have tons of friends, but few really good ones and yes i do miss 'em a lot, we are all over the world and Skype is the only way to see each other and talk.. not enough though..

By the way, I'm off today, no work! just relaxing and taking pics, and tomorrow the same :)
thank god i need some rest :)

peace.

News.... MUSE...

Hello everyone! how's life going? mine is getting busier...

have a couple of things to talk about today, so let's get started...

I got a new job!!!!

today was my first day at PERBACCO, an italian restaurant in the financial district, a fine dining restaurant were i have to host, wearing like a woman (and that's the real bet for me!!!) and follows tones of rules... it's gonna be hard, I already know but it's a challenge and i'm gonna try.. today i started my training and i hope i did it well, now i have 2 books to study, books about employees rules and it sounds crazy to me....

...but we will see, the most hard thing i have to do is being careful about tattoos and piercings... i have to hide all of them and i hate it because it's like hiding part of me, part of what i am.. but i have to, it's a good place to work, and yes i need money..

I have to do 4 more days of training and then i'm going to start my regular shifts, I'll have 3 days lunch time to start, so i can still work at Amarena, I won't leave my restaurant, i love it and i'll try to do some double shift, then I have to see how everything can works together with my school...

beeeecause I'm going to start the fall semester september 1st!!!! I'm super excited and happy, it's the fist time in my life i'm happy to go back to school :) i'm going to take 4 classes: photoshop, visualization, color photography and composition, they sounds awesome and i can't wait.. seriously!

Last things i want to talk about is what i did last saturday..........and i'll say only one word... MUSE!!!!!!!!!

I saw them at the Outside Lands Festival here in San Francisco, and i swear to God i've never seen a show like that in my entire life.. it was more than amazing, more than great... it was just perfect! They are unbelievable on stage, Matt is fantastic, I'm totally in love with him! I lost my voice singing all the songs, I was almost crying more than one time, I don't even know how to explain what their music makes me feel, the only thing i know it's that i love 'em!

This is a little video I took when they were performing my favorite song, it' s a crappy video but that moment will be in my heart forever...

Well.. now i have to study my paper work and get ready for dinner with my friends...

wish me some luck because it's going to start a super busy and stressful time of my life!!!

Peace.

Summertime

The summer is coming in San Francisco...

it's rainy, cold, kinda foggy and horrible!!!! After one year and 6 months I'm still complaining about this crappy weather, this morning i was talking to my brother and he was just back from the sea... you don't even know how i hated him at that moment.. i miss the sea so bad, and i'm super mad cause i have the sea a few blocks from my house, but here it's too cold so it's useless!!!

well.. I have some news!

First of all i finally had all my grades.... and YES i made it!!! I passed all my classes for this first semester and i'm more than happy, i had pretty good grades also, i feel proud of me, it's one of the best feelings i've ever had and it's just the beginning!

Now I'm relaxing a little, sleeping and chilling, after a big trauma cause the end of LOST i found a new tv show to watch, Grey's Anatomy... of course is not LOST, i still believe it's the only tv show that matters, but Grey's Anatomy is nice too and is good for my english, that i hope it's getting better...

Life without classes is weird, i have to much time now, so another thing i did it was fixing my room, i put some of my pics and i'm trying to turn my room into a gallery, it's gonna be perfect for me.

After that son of a bitch stole my purse I had to do a new ID... and yes I applied for the California ID, now i'm just waiting, it will be so weird seeing my face on an american ID.. i'm gonna miss my italian one but things keep changing...

Stupid question... have you ever listened a song 200 times and never get tired of it? well to me it happens all the times, the song of the moment is Judas, by Lady Gaga, my woman... i leave you the video bellow it's so cool...

Have a great week end everybody!

E.

P.S. New header, hope you like it, it's a photo of SF took it from Sausalito. peace.

Freaking out..

Well...I'm still alive, but i'm pretty tired (Forrest Gump docet!) ...

I'm turning into the last two weeks of this first semester and I'm working on my finals, it's tough, i'm stressed out, i'd like to sleep a bit more, i'd like to hang out more and i can't wait to spend some days doing NOTHING! after one year and a half studying no stop i think i need and i deserve a vacation! I don't care where, i only need to rest...

i'm also scared because tomorrow i have my first final test and i don't even know what i have to review, i'm doing again and again all the same things that i'm sick of everything, by the way i hope it's gonna be ok.

I'm also looking for a new job, yeah after one year at Amarena i think it's time to change, i like that place, it's nice and quite but i need more money, my school it's too expensive and i can't kick my ass working only to pay my bills and nothing else.. i need to enjoy my life a bit.. Right now i don't have so much time to think about my social life, yea i hang out but i don't have so much time to do all the things i'd like to do, but the summer break is close and i'm hella happy!

Now other news, i told you my social life is not that good, and i definitely turn the page with him.. i feel sad cause i think i made a big mistake, i overestimated someone who didn't deserve my feelings and it makes me feel really upset with myself.. but we learn from mistakes... i hope...

Sunday morning it happened something fantastic... i spent 3 hours on skype with Roger, i can still feel the same every time i talk to him, almost 3 years ago he made me feel alive again... now i wish to hug him again only for a second and relive all we had that summer, one of the most beautiful summer i have ever had! I hate being so far, but i'm sure we're not going to forget anything about what we felt and still feel for each others..

Anyway... now it's time to cook something... good night fellas! Wish me luck!!!!!!!!!

I'm sorry SoCal.. but I'm in love for the City by the Bay....

Every time I go visit SoCal I think how am I lucky to live in San Francisco!!!!

I spent my last week end between Los Angeles, Laguna Beach (Orange County) and Indio, I went over there to take some photos for a wedding, and yes it was fun and nice, but after one day I missed my city.

Everything is so different, if you don't have a car in SoCal you are OUT, it's impossible to go anywhere, also I dislike the people, they are all blond, the girls look like many Barbies and the guys are their perfect Ken...

I think i'll be sick of a place like that after 2 days... Thank God I'm here...

Yesterday when i saw the Bay Bridge i felt i was home!!! it's the first time i have this feeling, maybe San Francisco took my heart so deeply, everything make me happy, busy, crazy, sad, fun is here... if i could stay with my family here it will be perfect.. but i cant complain, this city make me feel free and living here is the only think i really want now.

Well... now im in my bed, ready to start this long day... i have to do a lot of homework and tonight im going to the AT&T park to watch a baseball game, San Francisco GIANTS vs Los Angeles DODGERS, it's gonna be so much fun, im never been to the stadium to watch a baseball game, actually i dont know anything about baseball, but im sure it will be great... of course ill be there to take as many pics i can :) im so boring... everything in my life is around photography hahah... but tonight it will be a great night to drink (that's what Americans do when they go to the stadium lol!)

So now it's time to start this day...

good morning San Francisco! i dont remember if I already told you today that I'm in love with you...?!

E.

weird thoughts

I was thinking... why in SF most of the guys are crazy for mustache??? actually I like'em too.. but here there is an obsession with mustache.. I saw mustache on guys, glasses, cups, t-shirt, patches, tattoos, girls with fake mustaches.. well.. who knows.. this is only one of my weird thoughts...

Finally I'm on spring break!!!
Actually it's not the best spring break ever, because of this shitty weather first of all and also because I'm still working... so it's not a real vacation :( but whatever... I can sleep a little bit and it means a lot now...
I decided to buy something special to me!!!!! A new pair of inline skates yay!!!! after loooong time I'll start skating again, I'm so happy about that, it was a big passion for me, and now it's time to do something special and think only about me again. I cant wait to run as a crazy with my new skates with Nicole... the ocean, the wind, the sun... so Californian!!!!!
I have to buy also a lighting set for a new assignment for school... Im gonna build a studio in my bedroom hahah.. but I'm still looking for something cheap, and as you know anything about photography is cheap (goddamnit!!)
I have few days to work on 2 different projects and I have no ideas at all!!! OMG it's frustrating.. sometimes i'd like to do only what I like.. but now photography is not just a passion, it's also my job and what I'm studying and somethimes it's not that fun...

I need to say GRAZIE to my mom for the beautiful photo she sent me, a photo with my family and my grandma...
Nonna mi manchi tanto, spero tu mi stia sempre accanto... ovunque tu sia... sei sempre nel mio cuore...

...and now I have to think about photos... about me... and that's it.
no more time for kids..

E.

..all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy..

...this is almost my face right now after I spent the entire day on my books, studying for the midterm, now I'm totally powerless, my eyes are so dry that I can feel my contacts everytime I close and open them, I didnt have time to eat anything, just breakfast this morning, and after all I feel I'm not ready for tomorrow, I'm scared and I dont know really what I'm going to do, it's the first time for me, the only thing I know is that the midterm is damn important... almost like the final exam...
Tomorrow I have Fundamentals of Photography test, Digital Photography on Thursday and History of Film on Friday... History of Photo and Concept will be next week... I'm praying, eventhough I dont know who... just hoping that my brain it's going to work properly tomorrow.
This time of my life is not the best I remember, too many things to do, too many things spinning on my head, too many questions without an answer, I feel like I'm walking alone and I'm fighting for something I'll never have, maybe...
why people prefer playing and hiding their feelings instead of talking to each other and live for real???? I dont understand why and it makes me feel sick!!!!!!
I feel those stupid butterflies in my stomach, but they dont fly, they are biting and scratching me and I cant do anything, everything I do it's not enough...

Please wish me luck for this week :) I need it..
and now I think I need to eat...

E.

Mad World...

I'm still alive :)
finally after 20 days i found some time to write a post on my blog!
My life is going too fast and im always too busy i cant take care of my little diary as id like to...but now im here... so...
my student life is great, i love AAU and even though it's pretty tough im doing all my best, stuying hard to keep my goals, this is all i want and all i have to do, now the most important thing is thinking about my future! 3 days ago i did my first assignment for Fundamentals of Photography and i got an A+ ... you should look at my smiley face at that moment, my teacher told me a lot of great things and i felt soo happy i was almost crying lol and after a good grade my motivation is huge! I'm born to take pics and i dont need anything else :)
My personal life is pretty good...
My sentimental life sucks...
i tried, i was almost happy again.. but i lost it... dont know why, i didnt get it, im so disappointed, so empty, maybe it's true.. im too self absorbed to figure out what other people feels.. it's the meanest thing somebody told me.. cant stop thinking about that, about who told me that.. but what can i do? I'm busy, maybe too busy, my school comes first, i must think about my future, and im kicking my ass to do it.. im just sad because i thought it could works, but it didnt... and i lost somebody i really liked after long time... now im trying to turn the page, but my mind is still there...
But the show must go on... so i'm still running, and running as fast as i can.. i have to leave out all the rest right now, maybe it sounds selfish but i dont have any choice. Me first, my life, my school, my future...got shit to do... then im gonna find time to think about somebody else... but yeah, i miss you... hope to find you again in another time of my life...
Cant never stop thinking about that day... we were sitting in front of each others, looking at each others, and we couldnt do anything, it was the wrong moment, in the wrong place... we were singing that song... together... we were so close... and so far... we were so wrong but it was one of the best moment i can remember...
the more you cant have something, the more you want something...

Up and Down..

...ed è ufficialmente iniziato il semestre all'Academy of Art, major in photography per la signorina Eleonora. Oggi ho seguito le prime lezioni e mi sono sentita come una bambina a Disneyland, è stato pazzesco, la classe di Fundamental of photography è incredibile, 3 ore passate velocissime e dio santo se mi sono sentita davvero presa, la seconda lezione photo, film and concepts è stata una sorta di chiacchierata col prof quindi per ora non so dire se mi piaccia o meno.. ma ci è stata fatta la panoramica di cosa potremo fare e santo iddio mi stavo leccando baffi, naso, orecchie etc etc ... il mio godimento più grande sarà quando faremo darkroom, già mi vedo lì a sviluppare le mie foto da sola, per ora mi accontento dei miei rullini fatti con le mie toy camera, ma appena ho 2 soldini mi compro una canon vintage analogica e poi dite pure addio alla sottoscritta perchè passerò ogni secondo del mio tempo libero a scattare dappertutto...
Domani ho lezione di digital photography... che dire, non vedo l'ora!
Questo week end inoltre sarà super movimentato, devo fare il trasloco!!!!!!! ebbene si signori HABEMUS CASAM!!! per una volta ho avuto un pò di culo e ho trovato una casa adorabile, con 3 ragazze americane che mi sono sembrate carinissime, la stanza è medio/grande e c'è anche una gattina che gironzola per casa, l'affitto è decisamente ottimo calcolando che torno a vivere in Marina! il mio primo quartiere, quello dove ho vissuto per i primi mesi qui e di questo sono felicissima, nonchè non amassi Russian Hill anzi, ma in Marina c'è il mio daddy Dario, e una parte del mio curicino visto che comunque ho dei ricordi particolari legati a quella zona, poi non c'è da fare nulla è un bel quartiere, residenziale, pieno di negozi, ristoranti, bar, club etc etc la gente che ci vive è il solo ed unico difetto, purtroppo è un pò come avere a che fare con i parioli a Roma, c'è ancora gente che si sente più figa perchè abita in una bella zona, ma io me ne guardo bene dal frequentare queste persone :) ergo continuerò a uscire dove esco ora, tra Mission e North Beach, dove c'è il casino insomma!
.. e se fin qui sono sembrata miss felicità, passo subito al lato meno piacevole di questo periodo: punto uno sono stressatissima che sto dando di matto, sono in completa bancarotta, ho speso tutti i miei soldi tra università e casa nuova, il lavoro non va bene in questo momento perchè è bassa stagione e se non trovo qualcos'altro da fare andò a vendermi un rene... cerco di essere positiva ma non è facile a volte mi sento davvero a pezzi, ma comunque provo ad andare avanti...
e poi... c'è il mio cuore che ha ripreso a battere e ho troppa paura... la prima cosa che mi viene in mente di fare è scappare, sono davvero terrorizzata...
ma di questo parlerò per bene.. forse un giorno..