Freaking out..

Well...I'm still alive, but i'm pretty tired (Forrest Gump docet!) ...

I'm turning into the last two weeks of this first semester and I'm working on my finals, it's tough, i'm stressed out, i'd like to sleep a bit more, i'd like to hang out more and i can't wait to spend some days doing NOTHING! after one year and a half studying no stop i think i need and i deserve a vacation! I don't care where, i only need to rest...

i'm also scared because tomorrow i have my first final test and i don't even know what i have to review, i'm doing again and again all the same things that i'm sick of everything, by the way i hope it's gonna be ok.

I'm also looking for a new job, yeah after one year at Amarena i think it's time to change, i like that place, it's nice and quite but i need more money, my school it's too expensive and i can't kick my ass working only to pay my bills and nothing else.. i need to enjoy my life a bit.. Right now i don't have so much time to think about my social life, yea i hang out but i don't have so much time to do all the things i'd like to do, but the summer break is close and i'm hella happy!

Now other news, i told you my social life is not that good, and i definitely turn the page with him.. i feel sad cause i think i made a big mistake, i overestimated someone who didn't deserve my feelings and it makes me feel really upset with myself.. but we learn from mistakes... i hope...

Sunday morning it happened something fantastic... i spent 3 hours on skype with Roger, i can still feel the same every time i talk to him, almost 3 years ago he made me feel alive again... now i wish to hug him again only for a second and relive all we had that summer, one of the most beautiful summer i have ever had! I hate being so far, but i'm sure we're not going to forget anything about what we felt and still feel for each others..

Anyway... now it's time to cook something... good night fellas! Wish me luck!!!!!!!!!