The color of passion

Mijo

I would like to use this post to talk about all the news I have in my life, about him, J, maybe the biggest news, but I think he's only for me, he's the sweetest part of my life and I'm so jealous that I wanna keep it only for me.

I'll tell you only that it's been 4 months and he makes me happy.

He's so different, different form every body I've ever liked in my life, from me, from everything it was common, and this huge difference scares me but at the same time it makes me so happy I can't almost believe it :) ... I'm smiling!!!!

The photo above is part of his face :) and every time I look at it I stop 5 seconds to think about WHY MEN NEED SO LONG EYELASHES??? this is so unfair!!!!

He's pure.

Like a Snake

The second photo is part of my thigh tattoo... now it's healing and in 2 weeks I'm gonna do the last session, I CAN'T WAIT!
Ready for more photos, and video?
I wanna create a set for my last tattoo session :) Juan is gonna love me (or kill me?!)

Now I should get ready to work.. damn I'm so lazy..

E.

I know the sun must set to rise

I still see your face everywhere I go.

I can smell you, hear you voice. Everything we were is so deep inside me and it doesn't want to leave.

It's been almost 4 months and I'm still here thinking you were the one. But I know I'm damn wrong. You were so wrong. You were a mistake. That's what I'm trying to believe. Maybe one day I'm gonna win this war, because you create a war inside me, and now I'm falling apart. 

I see blurry, nothing is on focus, only your memory is so vivid and it pisses me off. I'm losing. I lost you and now I'm losing myself. 

When will all of this be over? 

If I could I'd like to delete my memory like Clementine. I should hate you. But I only hate myself because I'm not able to let you go, and it's too late. 

I'm under a stormy sky and I'm waiting for the sun. 

Because I know the sun must set to rise...

Butterflies & Hurricanes

I'm done with today.

I'm done with that fake smile I need to have while I'm working.

I'm done with being nice and kind.

I'm done with that part of me I hate.

Tonight I was about to kill somebody. Why I can't kill stupid people? Why I can't clean the world? 

I don't get it, I think we are too many here... why I can't move on another planet with no idiots around? 

I'm so sick of my job. I'm not a waitress, I'm not a bartender. I'm not able to work with stupid and disrespectful people, I'm sick and tired of saying "yes" when I'd like to flip off my finger instead. 

I'm so done. 

One day everything is gonna be okay. Everything is gonna change. One day I'll be the way I am and I won't care about anybody else, or just the few people I want to care about. One day I'll be strong enough to say NO and give back all the shit I'm taking now....

But now I feel I'm struggling with the part of me who needs this compromise and the other part of me who'd like to give up. 

One day I'm gonna find a way out.

I'm so done with everything today.

Mia

Mia, a photo by ✖Pixie {Eleonora Palmieri photography} on Flickr.

Mia..

Mia is the other side of me, the other part that I usually hide, she is the best part.. because most of the time is too hard showing what we have inside so we prefer showing the worst part of us..

Mia is a dreamer, she is free, she is sweet and pure, she doesn't know what fear means, she's brave and she knows how to love, she's not scared to show her feelings.. she floats like a feather, she is so fragile but so strong, she looks lost sometimes, she lives in her weird state of mind, and doesn't really care about other people, but she's not selfish, she's just better than normal and ordinary people.

She lives every emotions till the end, and even though sometimes it hurts she's happy because she knows that is better live than survive.

Mia is in love.

Her love is far away from her, she's broken probably but she still happy because she wasn't scared to live and feel her passion, she has no regrets, and she's pretty sure that one day that little part of her broken heart is going to heal, she will be with him again...

I think Mia is crazy, just a little bit, she's kinda creepy sometimes but her eyes are so lovely that you can forgive her for being imperfect...

Mia is my private moment of pain, after one mad week where I thought to lose my mind, she helped me, she's gonna help me again...