New Born

New Born, a photo by ☠Pixie on Flickr.

Last post for this 2011. I'm writing at 7.43 in the morning... even though I'm tired I can't sleep, so I though to write something to say goodbye to this year.

This year was: busy, crazy, messy, intense (maybe too much), full of news, I had the opportunity to learn a lot in my school, and I thank my family to help me to reach my goal. Now I think I'm a better photographer (but I'm still learning, I won't never stop learning!!), I think I'm a better person, maybe a little bit too selfish, a little bit too self absorbed, but it's the only way I have to be focused on what I have to do.

And your 2011??? How was it??

I did super important things this year, first of all I started my school, the Academy of Art University, the most important thing I have here, the reason I'm doing what I'm doing. I passed all my classes and this was a very important success for me, as a foreign student I feel double satisfied!

I moved in a new great house, with a lovely roomie (finally!!!!!). 

I grew up in my job and finally I make pretty good money, after one year counting every cent now I feel refreshed!!

I got my 5D Mark ii and the 50mm F/1.4 and now I know I won't never live without.

I met great friends, but also a lot of shit... maybe more shitty people than good ones, but I've learned how to be strong enough to leave everything behind me and keep looking ahead.

I met the guy who knew how to change my life....

I lost the guy who changed my life...

For this new year I already have a pretty big list of goals I must reach.

• buy a speedlite for my 5D Mark ii.
• buy a new lens for my 5D Mark ii (maybe I'm gonna buy the 24-70mm F/2.8)
• buy a pretty good equipment of lights 
• buy a medium format super vintage camera
• get more tattoos (thighs, sleeve)
• let my hair grow
• pass all my classes with A and B only
• lose at least 10 lbs
• forget about what I used to have and I lost and look forward to find something better
• buy more shoes
• aprender español!!!!!
• go to Italy for a real summer experience <3
• never stop taking photos
• never stop being the way I am
• never stop getting better 

And now I think I'll try to sleep a little... tonight it's gonna be a hard night at work...

I wish a great end and an amazing beginning!

love ya bitches!

xxx

E.

Bye bye 2010

2010: probably one of the most important year of my life, everything is changed, me for first, my life... it started in one of the worst way ever, but only when you lose everything you can fight to have everything back, and when you do it alone is 1000 times better!
I had a lot of goals and I did them all, and I'm still doing them... I found a new house, a job, I learned (and still learning) another lenguage, I made amazing friends, laughing, incredible experiences, a lot of mistakes that teach me how do better. I learned that not only italian men are assholes but they are all the same everywhere :P, I learned that somethimes being a bitch is better than being too good. Now I know how to love me, I tasted how is amazing being a bit selfish.
I gained weight (shit!) but my family and all of my friends told me that I'm better now. I ate many different foods, I drank a lot, maybe too much :)
I took pictures everywhere, always with my baby, the only thing makes me feel alive, the only thing I'll never stop doing.
I realized a dream, I enrolled at the academy of Art, photography class, it was my dream before moving from Italy, I spent one year but I made it!
I found special friends and some stupid people (but they are everywhere LOL)...
I think I lost her, who I always thought was my best friend, my sister.. this is the only thing makes me feel really disappointed...
I got a new tattoo!!!!! I learned how to fly alone and I'm still learning because even though I feel proud of me somethimes I have to learn more and more...
New goals for this 2011 is coming: STUDY! photography and English better, find a better job, of course I hope to start working as a photographer, I hope in an intership with some good photographer, and some dreams I don't want to tell you, but I promise I'll try to realize :)

So... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! have fun tonight wherever you are, obviously my mind and my heart are with my friends in San Francisco, I miss you!!!!!
See you in 2011!!!!

Love
E.