I know the sun must set to rise

I still see your face everywhere I go.

I can smell you, hear you voice. Everything we were is so deep inside me and it doesn't want to leave.

It's been almost 4 months and I'm still here thinking you were the one. But I know I'm damn wrong. You were so wrong. You were a mistake. That's what I'm trying to believe. Maybe one day I'm gonna win this war, because you create a war inside me, and now I'm falling apart. 

I see blurry, nothing is on focus, only your memory is so vivid and it pisses me off. I'm losing. I lost you and now I'm losing myself. 

When will all of this be over? 

If I could I'd like to delete my memory like Clementine. I should hate you. But I only hate myself because I'm not able to let you go, and it's too late. 

I'm under a stormy sky and I'm waiting for the sun. 

Because I know the sun must set to rise...

Butterflies & Hurricanes

I'm done with today.

I'm done with that fake smile I need to have while I'm working.

I'm done with being nice and kind.

I'm done with that part of me I hate.

Tonight I was about to kill somebody. Why I can't kill stupid people? Why I can't clean the world? 

I don't get it, I think we are too many here... why I can't move on another planet with no idiots around? 

I'm so sick of my job. I'm not a waitress, I'm not a bartender. I'm not able to work with stupid and disrespectful people, I'm sick and tired of saying "yes" when I'd like to flip off my finger instead. 

I'm so done. 

One day everything is gonna be okay. Everything is gonna change. One day I'll be the way I am and I won't care about anybody else, or just the few people I want to care about. One day I'll be strong enough to say NO and give back all the shit I'm taking now....

But now I feel I'm struggling with the part of me who needs this compromise and the other part of me who'd like to give up. 

One day I'm gonna find a way out.

I'm so done with everything today.