Freaking out..

Well...I'm still alive, but i'm pretty tired (Forrest Gump docet!) ...

I'm turning into the last two weeks of this first semester and I'm working on my finals, it's tough, i'm stressed out, i'd like to sleep a bit more, i'd like to hang out more and i can't wait to spend some days doing NOTHING! after one year and a half studying no stop i think i need and i deserve a vacation! I don't care where, i only need to rest...

i'm also scared because tomorrow i have my first final test and i don't even know what i have to review, i'm doing again and again all the same things that i'm sick of everything, by the way i hope it's gonna be ok.

I'm also looking for a new job, yeah after one year at Amarena i think it's time to change, i like that place, it's nice and quite but i need more money, my school it's too expensive and i can't kick my ass working only to pay my bills and nothing else.. i need to enjoy my life a bit.. Right now i don't have so much time to think about my social life, yea i hang out but i don't have so much time to do all the things i'd like to do, but the summer break is close and i'm hella happy!

Now other news, i told you my social life is not that good, and i definitely turn the page with him.. i feel sad cause i think i made a big mistake, i overestimated someone who didn't deserve my feelings and it makes me feel really upset with myself.. but we learn from mistakes... i hope...

Sunday morning it happened something fantastic... i spent 3 hours on skype with Roger, i can still feel the same every time i talk to him, almost 3 years ago he made me feel alive again... now i wish to hug him again only for a second and relive all we had that summer, one of the most beautiful summer i have ever had! I hate being so far, but i'm sure we're not going to forget anything about what we felt and still feel for each others..

Anyway... now it's time to cook something... good night fellas! Wish me luck!!!!!!!!!

I'm sorry SoCal.. but I'm in love for the City by the Bay....

Every time I go visit SoCal I think how am I lucky to live in San Francisco!!!!

I spent my last week end between Los Angeles, Laguna Beach (Orange County) and Indio, I went over there to take some photos for a wedding, and yes it was fun and nice, but after one day I missed my city.

Everything is so different, if you don't have a car in SoCal you are OUT, it's impossible to go anywhere, also I dislike the people, they are all blond, the girls look like many Barbies and the guys are their perfect Ken...

I think i'll be sick of a place like that after 2 days... Thank God I'm here...

Yesterday when i saw the Bay Bridge i felt i was home!!! it's the first time i have this feeling, maybe San Francisco took my heart so deeply, everything make me happy, busy, crazy, sad, fun is here... if i could stay with my family here it will be perfect.. but i cant complain, this city make me feel free and living here is the only think i really want now.

Well... now im in my bed, ready to start this long day... i have to do a lot of homework and tonight im going to the AT&T park to watch a baseball game, San Francisco GIANTS vs Los Angeles DODGERS, it's gonna be so much fun, im never been to the stadium to watch a baseball game, actually i dont know anything about baseball, but im sure it will be great... of course ill be there to take as many pics i can :) im so boring... everything in my life is around photography hahah... but tonight it will be a great night to drink (that's what Americans do when they go to the stadium lol!)

So now it's time to start this day...

good morning San Francisco! i dont remember if I already told you today that I'm in love with you...?!

E.

weird thoughts

I was thinking... why in SF most of the guys are crazy for mustache??? actually I like'em too.. but here there is an obsession with mustache.. I saw mustache on guys, glasses, cups, t-shirt, patches, tattoos, girls with fake mustaches.. well.. who knows.. this is only one of my weird thoughts...

Finally I'm on spring break!!!
Actually it's not the best spring break ever, because of this shitty weather first of all and also because I'm still working... so it's not a real vacation :( but whatever... I can sleep a little bit and it means a lot now...
I decided to buy something special to me!!!!! A new pair of inline skates yay!!!! after loooong time I'll start skating again, I'm so happy about that, it was a big passion for me, and now it's time to do something special and think only about me again. I cant wait to run as a crazy with my new skates with Nicole... the ocean, the wind, the sun... so Californian!!!!!
I have to buy also a lighting set for a new assignment for school... Im gonna build a studio in my bedroom hahah.. but I'm still looking for something cheap, and as you know anything about photography is cheap (goddamnit!!)
I have few days to work on 2 different projects and I have no ideas at all!!! OMG it's frustrating.. sometimes i'd like to do only what I like.. but now photography is not just a passion, it's also my job and what I'm studying and somethimes it's not that fun...

I need to say GRAZIE to my mom for the beautiful photo she sent me, a photo with my family and my grandma...
Nonna mi manchi tanto, spero tu mi stia sempre accanto... ovunque tu sia... sei sempre nel mio cuore...

...and now I have to think about photos... about me... and that's it.
no more time for kids..

E.