Kids? ... NO thanks.

One Word, a photo by ☠Pixie on Flickr.

Hola everyone, it's been a while, hope y'all are fine and enjoying the summer... or if you live in SF I'm sorry because we have no summer and we are not suppose to enjoy anything ( of course if you like cold, wind and fog, you are in the right place in the right moment)...

I have been pretty busy with my new job which I like, finally I'm getting closer to my coworkers, of course they're not Nicole but she was much more than just a coworker, of course the cook is not MY cook, but it's fine, changing is good and everything seems to be ok. 

I was thinking to write this post about a topic I really want to talk about: having a baby, kids, children.. figli.. 

Ok, first of all, just to be clear, I'm not pregnant! 

then we can keep talking.. I was noticing how a lot of my friends, a lot!!!!, from the high school, just people I met long time ago, but part of my generation, is getting married and/or is having kids...one, or two... jeez!!!!! 

But guys, friends, are you ready, for real, to have that kind of life? Is it your job and financial situation that good to let you have multiple kids around? to create a family? 

WOW so I'm thinking now, it's bullshit when I read that in Italy there is no job, no money, etc etc... I still remember when my mom had my brother, she was spending sooooo much for everything!!! Diapers, milk, specific food, specific soap, medicine, doctors, stroller, car seat, clothes etc etc etc etc....... 

Let's say this, I'm not a big fan of kids, I like 'em for 10 mins, then when they start crying or yelling or whatever things related to their world, I'd like to choke 'em :) .. ok I'm not that mean, but seriously I don't see myself with a kid, I can't even think of myself with a "little monster" in my arms, and it's weird to say I'm really good with them, I was a great baby sitter when I was in Italy, for a lots of my little cousins, for the two kids of my friend Wanda, but NO NO NO I don't feel that damn desire to be a mom! 

I have no time to take care of my stuff, my life is so messy, I'm still studying, I have a crazy schedule at work, I don't even know where I'm going to spend my life, seriously I don't know if my life is going to be here, back in Italy or somewhere else, I know for sure that I want to travel, I hope my job is going to help me out to do this, but NO again I have tons of projects and have a baby is not one of them..

Some of my friends told me I'm cynic and cold, that I won't never be a woman if I won't be a mom, that I won't never be complete, and my face was WHAT??? WTF!!!! I won't be a woman without a yelling kid around??? well this is not my idea!! I think I'm a great woman, I'm a hard worker, I know what means the word SACRIFICE and I'm breaking my back to accomplice my goals, I have a man I love, and he loves me too, I think I make him happy, I think I could be an amazing soulmate, but I just don't want have kids... am I so weird? am I not a real woman for that? 

Well, I'm so glad we are allowed to have different opinions, maybe one day I'm going to change my mind, maybe one day I'm going to be happy and ready for a family.. but now let me tell you, FUCK NO!!!!!!

Now you are the weird one for me and it won't make me feel bad if you think I am the monster.

With love,

E.

Pretty in Pink

Pink is the color of passion, yeah!!!
An amazing song by the Aerosmith used to say that and I believe is true, with my new style I feel so HOT!!!!
Yeah and I'm not even close to be crazy (I'm mean, just a  little bit) but it's incredible how just a color can range my mood, my new hair makes me feels sooo good!!!!
I did my hair pink because I wanted to celebrate my finals, yes I'm finally done with them and now I'm in vacation. V A C A T I O N!!!! this word sounds so sweet :))))
My finals were very good, sometimes I can't believe myself how I can be productive when I'm under pressure, also I got the compliments from my quality of light teacher for my photos and the whole semester and his words were better than all the A+ I can get in my entire carrier.
Now, I'm trying to sleep a little, trying to eat a little more, trying to take my life back, but I won't take any vacation from my camera, and actually I'm about to go shooting right now for a friend's bday party, I hope to do not fall asleep while I'm shooting..

Other big news, I may have a new job.... but but but I will talk about it when I'm 100% sure :)

E.

P.S. I'm gonna write soon a new post all about the Google scholarship I won, it deserves an entire post :P

sassolini nella scarpa...

Just because I'm a nice and kind person I'm gonna tell you that this post is gonna be in italian, yes today I'm lazy and I don't wanna think and write in another language so, take google translate, or your fucking Rosetta Stone and start reading..... otherwise see ya in another post life.

Oggi mi sento che devo scrivere in italiano, quindi vaffanculo all'inglese e a chi non capirà cosa sto scrivendo...
Purtroppo non riesco a star dietro al mio blog, faccio schifo lo aggiorno una volta al mese, ma la mia vita non mi permette tempo da dedicare a nulla, manco a me stessa.
Ok la smetto di lamentarmi che tanto non frega una figa secca a nessuno se mi piango addosso.
Si quella nella foto sono io, non un gallo da combattimento :) dopo 2 anni di non tinte ho deciso che era ora di cambiare colore e mi sono fatta un rosso/fuxia che non impegna affatto... una cosa sobria che non dà nell'occhio... ma prende a pugni gli occhi!
La decisione è arrivata non di corsa ma la ponderavo, la spinta finale l'ha data la mia decisione di mandare a fanculo il lavoro!!!! ebbene si! dopo l'ultima discussione arrivata a toccare la mia vita personale, i miei cazzetti privati, dopo le ultime parole dette da una persona che non è manco degna di leccarmi il sedere dopo una scarica di diarrea, ho preso le mie cosine e ho tirato un bel dito medio. la sensazione è stata incazzata come un lupo, delusa per il culo che mi sono fatta in questi anni per qualcuno che meritava solo calci nelle balle, e godimento puro. 
Quindi ora sono ufficialmente una disoccupata, e si è troppo strano, ho tempo libero. Poco ma ne ho. Ho deciso che mi faccio un mese di disintossicazione dallo stress accumulato e poi dio provvede, sto studiando come una pazza in previsione degli esami finali, ho mille progetti da preparare e il tempo per la mia scuola è il più prezioso e ben investito. Sto lavorando tantissimo in studio ed è la cosa più bella del mondo, il livello di piacere che si sprigiona durante i miei fotoset in studio è pazzesco!
Per il resto va tutto nella norma, cioè tra i mille casini lo metto sempre nelle ciap a tutti perché ho più palle io di un campo da golf... e si mi amo, mi stimo, per quanto la sfiga ci provi sempre io sono più forte, per quanto la merda cerchi sempre di calpestarmi io la schivo, o al massimo se mi sporca un po' so che basta una doccia bollente e tutto torna pulito.

KARMA.
Vi fotterà.
e allora ci sarà da ridere....

E.