Mia

Mia, a photo by ✖Pixie {Eleonora Palmieri photography} on Flickr.

Mia..

Mia is the other side of me, the other part that I usually hide, she is the best part.. because most of the time is too hard showing what we have inside so we prefer showing the worst part of us..

Mia is a dreamer, she is free, she is sweet and pure, she doesn't know what fear means, she's brave and she knows how to love, she's not scared to show her feelings.. she floats like a feather, she is so fragile but so strong, she looks lost sometimes, she lives in her weird state of mind, and doesn't really care about other people, but she's not selfish, she's just better than normal and ordinary people.

She lives every emotions till the end, and even though sometimes it hurts she's happy because she knows that is better live than survive.

Mia is in love.

Her love is far away from her, she's broken probably but she still happy because she wasn't scared to live and feel her passion, she has no regrets, and she's pretty sure that one day that little part of her broken heart is going to heal, she will be with him again...

I think Mia is crazy, just a little bit, she's kinda creepy sometimes but her eyes are so lovely that you can forgive her for being imperfect...

Mia is my private moment of pain, after one mad week where I thought to lose my mind, she helped me, she's gonna help me again...

love is a losing game

"One I wish I never played
Oh what a mess we made
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game"

This is what Amy Winehouse said in one of her song, one of my favorite song of Amy...

Never like in these days I can tell how it's true.. love is a losing game..

after 3 months with no talking and no seeing each others you are here again, why?

I don't understand, really. I don't get people, I think I don't get life.. Now you're moving, and 4 days before you're leaving you are here again.. and i'm so stupid, so vulnerable, so in love with you after all, after the bad words, after the bad moments, after the magic moments, after our up and down, 2 months of love, two of hate... why? why we are still here? I don't get us..

the only thing I know is how everything become invisible when I'm with you, all the rest lose meaning, nothing matters, I feel I could live with anything else...

what should I do? I'm not ready for your move, I can't think we have 3 more days, only 3 more days.. I wish I could keep you here with me I wish I could be so strong to change you and change what is going on, but I can't.. I can't, and it hurts I almost can't breathe.

i think i love you..and i'm losing you.

Mistakes

I always say: God is in the food... after this photo I'm sure you'll agree with me...

And there's nothing better than good, fat, sweet, amazing food, to recover our soul pain. And that's what i ate last sunday for our roommates brunch, awesome.

Sunday night i saw the only person i didn't think to see, the only person I didn't want to see.. and he was right in front of me.. no words, a damn fast look at each others and then nothing. What are we?: nothing. what were we?: nothing.

I made a huge mistake, but i don't have regrets, I did everything I could, I believed for a moment he was the right one, I was wrong, but it doesn't matter, I'm happy to make mistakes, it means I'm alive and I have feelings and I use my heart more than my brain.. but now I really need a break. I need a time to relax and recover. And I will be fixed, again. I can do it :)

I can be the cold and cynical Ele that sometimes I love.

I'm not scared I know, it will be just for a small period of time..

I was talking about mistakes, well I realized almost 2 years ago I chose the wrong cousin..

it's nice talking to you in the middle of the night. It's more than nice teasing you, but it's damn annoying being so far.. specially when you feel so hungry.... right?

Time to sleep, hope to feel better tomorrow.

E.